Random Updates

~ Well, I've decided that it's over with me and McRockstar. Actually not really because he's so dam appealing that I can never say no to him. But the goal here is that I'm giving him until the end of this week to do something about us and if there is nothing by then, I'm over it. Not at all really but I'll pretend to be over it and then of course he'll want my attention and then I'm going to see how this hard-to-get thing works. I'll ignore him and if what people tell me is true, he'll be falling all over me, and then I'll build self-confidence by not letting him have me!

~ McDirty still isn't really speaking to me. I'm also gonna let him go too. We've had our fun and I think it's run its course. Plus this whole being a responsible adult thing means that I need to move on with everything that is not helping me get to where I want to be. Even though I have no idea where I want to be.

~ I started reading The Secret a couple days ago (after I finally found the bookstore that was supposed to be cheaper but I still ended up paying the same price as Walmart, so I should have just gone there). I haven't really gotten too far into it but the basic idea that I've gotten from the book so far is that it's about the Law of Attraction and how if you think positive thoughts and thoughts of what you want out of life, those things will be attracted to you. I haven't learned yet how to think those thoughts instead of the thoughts about why the hell are things out to get me.

~ Also, Meredith and I have had a plan for the last couple years that we will write a book about how we got through our break ups that will help other girls go through it since we've already been there. That, and I've decided that I keep saying how my life would make such a good reality show but instead I'm gonna do it the old fashioned way and write about my life and all the ridiculous things that have happened but make it even more crazy by having my character say and do all the things that I really dream about doing but haven't had the guts to do. Since I've been bailed on once again, my plan is to get it started now and then I'll have a whole week to work on it while I lay on the beach trying desperately to tan my horribly white skin.

~ After spending a good bit of time last night budgeting my next three paychecks I think I will barely be able to scrape by and pay all of my bills that are coming and still have a few bucks to spend on vacation. God knows I do not want to end up back in the mess that I got in after my disastrous trip to the beach with JerkFace. It took months to get caught up on everything and I ended up with more overdraft charges than I can ever deal with again!

Fate Strikes Again!.....Not in a good way

Once again I did not get a job that was perfect for me. This time I can't blame it on the monster that is my current employer. Even though I am convinced that they are the reason I have not been offered any of the jobs I have interviewed for recently.

This most recent one was taken when I applied for it. The person that got it better be freaking Mother Theresa incarnate.....no not really. I'm not that mean and I'm sure the person is really good at their job but I'm just getting desperate here for a chance to show someone how hard I can work and how much I could accomplish if I was just given the chance.

So for now I sit here waiting and blogging, and looking up other jobs, and thinking about writing, and hoping that McRockstar would come visit us at work today................

Perfect Job

So yesterday I managed to find a job that is absolutely perfect for me, now I just need to MAKE them give it to me. Really, the job was modeled after things I would love to do. Organize public events. Hold town hall meetings. Build a community through volunteer work and good deeds.

I just wrote my cover letter and they need a writing sample as well so I'll probably be working on that tomorrow since I'm off. Maybe this was the big chance I've been waiting for. Maybe this is the reason that my EMT classes didn't work out...



PS- Talked to the guy that my fairy god mother wants me to date. The more I think about it he would probably be a really great boyfriend but now I'm really nervous about how to go about it. I'll enlist Meredith and Izzy to help me sink my teeth in!

Scratch that....

So as excited as I am about the EMT class, I think I'm going to have to wait and take it another time. I know Izzy is gonna be mad but I don't think that I have the time in my life for it right now. She was the one who picked to take that class at those times and it works for her (except the Saturdays) but I just can't manage it right now.

The money that I could lose from not taking the class right now is nothing compared to the money that my mom would be out from the vacation that she already paid for. And I think there are enough circumstances in my life that it might be possible for me to take a later course and maybe one that is more appropriate for me.

Money Bags!

Hey, if your name is Money Bags, I need you!! I really don't know what to do at this point about vacation, and class. The two WILL NOT work out together. But if I wasn't so poor I really wouldn't be mad about it.

The Kite Runner

I know I'm about two years late on reading The Kite Runner but I tend to stay away from things that are hyped up during the hype because I'm afraid I'll be disappointed. But I did hear so much about this book, including a certain person whose opinion I truly value, so I decided to read it.

I started yesterday while we were waiting at the doctors office and I really got into it. I read about 100 pages while we were sitting there and it was absolutely nothing like what I thought it would be. Also I didn't realize that it was a fictional story and not an autobiography.

As naive as it may sound I was taken back by the modern life that the main character leads. I'm just starting to get into the section of the book where the problems start. So I really wish there were a few more hours in my day because the school books have to come first, even though they are a lot heavier to carry around with me!

First Day of School

Well, today was the first day of my EMT class. Surprisingly, we actually did things on the first day of class. I had been planning on getting home early, maybe even stopping by Dad's doctors appointment but we were there the full time which is OK because the things we went over today would completely bore me and now we can just jump into more class work on Thursday for the next class.

The thing that was really annoying is the fact that the book cost more than the course itself. But my friend that's taking the class with me and I are going to share it so it won't be too bad.... (sidebar: friend that is in my class, we're gonna call her Izzy from now on because it fits and it's appropriate for the friendship).

And I also thought that the class only had one Saturday class. Instead it's 8 hours EVERY SATURDAY! This creates many problems... First I usually work every Saturday and the class isn't over until two hours into my shift (Poor Izzy usually doubles on Saturdays). Secondly, you are only allowed to miss so many hours of class and I have a vacation scheduled for seven days in July. So that's gonna suck and the first day of vacation is a Saturday that we would be learning extraction from a car, so this vacation keeps turning into a bigger and bigger disaster. Looks like I'm gonna miss a few days of it. I haven't told work about the Saturday thing yet but I'm hoping I can switch shifts with people and make it all work out. Otherwise I'm out the money I paid for the class because you aren't able to take the state test if you miss too many hours.

OK enough with that bitching. I'm really looking forward to getting this training over with so that I can start a new career because I'm going to lose my mind if I stay at this one too much longer. And I am excited about the possibilities that come with learning new skills and how many ways there are to go once you have the education.

I started reading today when I got home from class and the goal is to read everything that I need for the next class or two by tomorrow so that I can pass the book off to Izzy on her way home from work and school. The amount of course work is actually surprising too because they are squeezing a three month course down into two months which I like!! Less time in class means the sooner I can get started.

With working in EMS I really don't want to be coming into the hospital that I work in now because I would feel kind of awkward with the people I know seeing me in a different role. I'm shy like that. So I'll keep you updated on all the fun there is to be had in EMS! Ha!!