Tonight is the second round of a friend of mine's birthday...For some unknown reason we've decided to go to the busiest club in Pittsburgh. I've honestly never been there before but all I hear about that place is that it's always crowded and it takes forever to get drinks. Hopefully we get down there early enough to take advantage of the drink specials so that we don't realize the place is a pain in the butt to deal with.
I kind of want to stop at the store and get a new shirt at least for tonight... But that would take time away from me getting a quick nap. Yet another sign I'm getting old! This would be the third night in a row that I'll be out and about so I'm thinking that I might take it easy tonight and just chill...Always a good idea to have a couple people keeping an eye on the birthday girl! Then in less than two weeks its my turn!!! Watch out!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Uh oh.....A Virgin No Longer
Well last night was a first for me. I broke up with the new boy. I never did that before and it's really a slap in the face after being on the other side so many times. It really amazed me that all the things I hate hearing from someone that I'm dating, I said to him last night. I told him we can still be friends, and that it's not him, it's my issues. And then I really started to feel bad because I know exactly what he's thinking right now and he probably hates me right now.
I know he had so many plans for us but I think that is what was really giving me a strange vibe. I get a gut feeling about people and things right away and something just didn't quite match up there...Don't get me wrong, I really do think he is a great guy but things moved way too fast and by now it just didn't seem fair to try and change the way things had been going. I really felt like I would be back-tracking on him because I had gotten caught up in the moment and allowed things to develop the way they did. In all reality, we were acting like we had know each other for years from the second day we knew each other. That sounds like a great thing but honestly it made me uncomfortable the longer it went on. We didn't know each other.
The thing that made me most upset about having to do that last night is the I knew what he was going to say once I asked him if we could slow down and it really hurts me to hear it. He has had several bad things happen to him when things were going really well in his life but I think if he took his time a little more things would not be so crushing to him and maybe not moving in super high speed would help make things run a little more smoothly.
Because I know how upset he was and I know that he has been down on his luck for a while I kind of understand why he flipped out at me last night and said some things that I know he will regret. I do just keep in the back of my mind that the rage he showed last night was only after a little more than a month of knowing him. He snapped. And the other thing that keeps coming to my mind is that the night he met me, he was upset over and waiting for a girl who never showed up. Something about that tells me that he will be OK and things will work out right for him. I think he had done a pretty good job of convincing himself that he really was in love with me when in reality I think he will move on just fine and I hope he can find real happiness soon.
I know he had so many plans for us but I think that is what was really giving me a strange vibe. I get a gut feeling about people and things right away and something just didn't quite match up there...Don't get me wrong, I really do think he is a great guy but things moved way too fast and by now it just didn't seem fair to try and change the way things had been going. I really felt like I would be back-tracking on him because I had gotten caught up in the moment and allowed things to develop the way they did. In all reality, we were acting like we had know each other for years from the second day we knew each other. That sounds like a great thing but honestly it made me uncomfortable the longer it went on. We didn't know each other.
The thing that made me most upset about having to do that last night is the I knew what he was going to say once I asked him if we could slow down and it really hurts me to hear it. He has had several bad things happen to him when things were going really well in his life but I think if he took his time a little more things would not be so crushing to him and maybe not moving in super high speed would help make things run a little more smoothly.
Because I know how upset he was and I know that he has been down on his luck for a while I kind of understand why he flipped out at me last night and said some things that I know he will regret. I do just keep in the back of my mind that the rage he showed last night was only after a little more than a month of knowing him. He snapped. And the other thing that keeps coming to my mind is that the night he met me, he was upset over and waiting for a girl who never showed up. Something about that tells me that he will be OK and things will work out right for him. I think he had done a pretty good job of convincing himself that he really was in love with me when in reality I think he will move on just fine and I hope he can find real happiness soon.
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